Daily goals

Stop. Breathe. Think. then laugh it off, because after you think about it; it’s hilarious. So people just find the humor in you daily stresses. Be happy what you got, then you can then see what you really want. Okay, i’m preaching and not living it. Hey! first step of addiction is admittance. Don’t ask me what addiction has to do with admittance, maybe together we all can figure it out together; or not.

Wait! what? this was a post about daily goals. How did get on to this

Roommate from hell…lol

Ever live with another guy in a small room. Luckily, we have a barricade dividing so we don’t have to see one another. This guys like, turning up the tv as loud as possible, but what’s hilarious is, i love watching MLB too. I would say this guy thinks with his emotions like, well, that would be an insult to  people that i’m referring to. So, this morning he wakes up early and watches tv as loud as possible again and like i just pour me some water and he growls, sighs, and carries on. It’s so funny, i have to leave the room and let out a great big snicker and laugh. Gotta make sure no one is around. Anyways, i thought i’d share with. I mean, how am i supposed know what the hell i am doing to cause such irritation with no one tells me what they don’t like about me. so, needless to say, nothing changes and i just hold such a laugh in that just about kills me. I’m giggling like a little school girl writing this. somethings in life can’t just be made up. Wow! this thing called life is such a wild ride!


Peace to all! Don’t worry, be happy!

usa flag poem

I am the flag of the United States of America. My name is Old Glory. I fly atop the world’s tallest buildings. I stand watch in America’s halls of justice. I fly majestically over great institutes of learning. I stand guard with the greatest military power in the world. Look up! And see me!

I stand for peace, honor, truth, and justice. I stand for freedom. I am confident . . . I am arrogant. I am proud.

When I am flown with my fellow banners, my head is a little higher, my colors a little truer.

I bow to no one. I am recognized all over the world. I am worshipped. I am saluted. I am respected. I am revered. I am loved. And I am feared.

I have fought every battle of every war for more than 200 years… Gettysburg, Shilo, Appomatox, San Juan Hill, the trenches of France, the Argonne Forest, Anzio, Rome, the beaches of Normandy, the deserts of Africa, the cane fields of the Philippines, the rice paddies and jungles of Guam, Okinawa, Japan, Korea, Vietnam, and a score of places long forgotten by all but those who were with me.

I was there!

I led my soldiers. I followed them. I watched over them… They loved me.

I was on a small hill in Iwo Jima. I was dirty, battle-worn and tired, but my soldiers cheered me, and I was proud.

I have been soiled, burned, torn and trampled on the streets of countries
I have helped set free. It does not hurt . . . for I am invincible.
I have been soiled, burned, torn and trampled on the streets of my country, and when it is by those with whom I have served in battle . . . it hurts. But I shall overcome . . . for I am strong.

I have slipped the bonds of Earth and stand watch over the uncharted new frontiers of space from my vantage point on the moon.

I have been a silent witness to all of America’s finest hours. But my finest hour comes when I am torn into strips to be used for bandages for my wounded comrades on the field of battle. when I fly at half mast to honor my soldiers… and when I lie in the trembling arms of a grieving mother at the graveside of her fallen son. I am proud. My name is Old Glory. Dear God . . . Long may I wave!

SMSgt. Don S. Miller, USAF (Ret.)
Copyright © 1983

Asset v. liability

Why did I write these notes, but here goes. Maybe someone can make sense of these random thoughts.

Asset: item of property; quality

liability: debt disadvantage; a state of being liable

10 steps to developing (what?)

  1. i need a reason greater than reality.
  2. I choose daily.
  3. Choose friends carefully.
  4. Master a formula and then learn a new one.
  5. Pay yourself first.
  6. Pay your brokers well.
  7. Be an “Indian giver.”
  8. assets buy luxuries.
  9. The need for heroes.
  10. teach and you shall receive.

People with ADHD

Here’s is a list that may or not be right, but what the heck. People with ADHD may more likely take more risks, three times more speeding tickets, also teens four times like to cause accidents. They also tend to do several things at once. Perhaps there are a few things to try to help a person with ADHD, but these are not well adapted; play it by ear:

  1. confront
  2. be nice and friendly
  3. no gifts or spoiling
  4. save travel money
  5. go places
  6. confront to go on a long spiritual vacation
  7. move. go somewhere, even for a month or two
  8. teach but don’t force knowledge
  9. seek ways to improve life
  10. need change to change

Okay, I wrote this quite a few years ago, but not sure where i was going with this. Just notes i have taken down.

Staff Notation

What can I tell you about this entry? This is a way for you to read music easily according to the number system. Because music is all about numbers. Master the placements of where C is and you realize that staff notation is just a block of keys or frets on an instrument. Obviously, now vocally, its about where to start your range or transpose a few keys down. Master your scales in all the modes you can think of, find a new way of creating an improvised scale.  Enjoy!

7               space
5               space
4-     middle C     
3               space
1               space

Remember there are 7 octaves on a piano using the Iodian (or Major scale). So,
“A,Bb/A#,B is three keys PLUS seven octaves PLUS the tonic of the Major scale.”

You have to accept yourself of what you are!

Growing up around alcoholics that seemed to have their shit together and “responsible,” sure they made lots of mistakes. What are they to tell me what to do, and I haven’t done anything as remotely stupid or drink as much as them. My mother is abusive. My grandma is very abusive. My grandma is an alcoholic but stopped because she has been put in the position to say she has to set the example. I mean, come on, how arrogant to think that you have to set the example without even admitting your wrongs. My whole family is sick, demented and delusional. My family has told me that I am “self-less” and can’t deal with me because “you’re needling my conscious,” this is basically on the same day as me trying to understand that I’m supposed to think, feel, and behave how they want me to do. And I’m okay with doing that, but you’re going to have been patient with and be very specific and literal. They say I know better and that I’m playing games. Then I ask them how I play games, they say, “you know because we raised you better than this.” Like obviously, if you raised me as such, you wouldn’t be hounding me to change. I keep telling them that I’m willing to change to how they want me and they say again, “you’re needling me.” Like what the fuck?! I came to the conclusion that my family is sick and twisted, they don’t want me to be like them. That’s why they hypocritically judge me into a vicious cycle of ups and down. I will always remember that very last conversations every time they “cast me to swine.” They say, “you’re a good person,” “you’re selfless,” “you deserve a much better life than what our family offers,” and “we wish you to win the lottery and be happy.” How much does that hurt to realize that your family jealously despise your very existence that they don’t care, that they never talk to you again and “cast you to swine.” So what is wrong with me?

I have a mental disability, but does it even matter what the diagnoses is? So, even though I only drank because my family encouraged it and wanted me to drink when I’m around them. I hate to say it, but it’s better that I don’t have to be around them and kill myself from heavy drinking. Sure, once you’re hooked from the years of hanging out with them, it takes a toll and you think you need to keep up the drinking from the past. Granted I never or ever did drink a lot, but the act of drinking depresses me because it’s a depressant. I come a while ago that drinking just wasn’t me. Funny, my family said that my choice of friends would pressure me to do drugs and get wasted, but in reality, my family and my family’s religious brotherhood encourages drinking. So, not drinking when I’m not around them is easy now. Now, I have to learn to set boundaries and say no to “peer (family) pressure.” Sure it was hard to get over not drinking, but basically, if you know why you drank and substitute with things that you used to do before your life was dictated by family that say, “they want what’s best for you,” I have lots of time to do those things.

I swear, I think my family just likes to laugh at my expense because well, they just don’t understand or want to accept my disability. Shit, I had a hard time to accept that I’m different than them. I went to AA to support other workmates who being union brotherhood, support them and go with them. I’m sorry, I have no respect for the AA meetings now, but I did learn one thing! Why do people drink? There are unique reasons!

I accept that I’m disabled and slow, I rather live in my journey through accepting that even though this is the case, that I can cope and hope in achieving something of just being me; whatever that is! I will set boundaries of not letting what’s left of my mother’s relationship, even though she wants to dictate what I am without listening and enable me to drink because it makes her feel powerful. Funny! My mother doesn’t drink, but she has other vices now. Of course, she never got caught, but she does realize how violent she was when she drank; why would she ever admit what I learnt as a young teenager. She has to protect her rap.

Interestingly, take a look at Prince and the life he lived before he became a Jehovah’s witness. And now, look at the hypocritical judgmental person he is today. It’s sad how people do things to try and be accepted, but the truth is: “You have to accept yourself for what you are!”

So as I journey through life accepting me and not trying to understand how to think, feel, and act which was dictated, but truly taking life one day at a time with the support system without the family. Perhaps, this is better than “following after the crowd,” or on the “narrow path.” I am grateful for the mental health doctors in helping me see that my family doesn’t accept my mental disability. I will do what I can to strive for independent living.

Keys or bass

Okay, I mean bring about some greek in a bass lesson. Okay, not really, lol! But seriously, when learning the power of the musical language, it’s all about a single melody, just harmonized with the other voices. It’s what you do with the instrument and playing with other instrumentalists. Even the piano, although solo, can be harmonized with other voices. So, looking at the bass guitar, it sets the foundation for most music pieces. What then can we do with a good (if not great) foundation?

Funny thing about other instruments, they all eventually go right back to the keyboard. There’s a whole lot of reasons for this. One reason may be because the keyboard is capable of harmonizing 3 or 4 (5 and 6 or more) voices at a time, but we will keep it at 4 for the sake of sanity. even 4 voices is challenging; so anything more, well, just leave it there.

With a good foundation, mostly from a good and simple bass groove, the other hand (or instrumentalists) can then play along and substitute of tones along with this groove following the harmony rules. When at the keyboard, mostly by a solo player, one can improvise along with the main groove; even have a drum loop playing in the background.

So, which one should I continue to learn? That’s a tough question because I hear the bass groove over everything else and everything else is secondary.  I don’t know why, but having never pick up a bass guitar, and just air plucking and fretting. I feel just running down the fret board in my mind would be enough to start playing simple grooves when I do finally get to play one. Funny, as I learn this keyboard, even when I’m not at it, I run through arpeggios, scales, chords, inversions, etcetera in my mind. When I sit down on the bench again, I noticed that I just have become even a more stronger and well rounded player.

With this I come to the conclusion that I will stay with the keyboard while using my knowledge of the bass fret board to help me play better keys and remembering to always listen to the bass groove of any piece or song. Well, on to watching more bass soloists on youtube!

Bass Fret Identification

E — e,f,f#,g,g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#, e,f,g, g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e
A — a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e,f,f#,g,g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e,f,f#,g,g#,a
D — d,d#,e,f,f#,g,g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e,f,f#,g, g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d
G — g,g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e,f,f#,g,g#,a,a#,b,c,c#,d,d#,e,f,f#,g